And what do you do?
There is always someone that says: ‘Lili, why don’t you sell cakes and sweets’ or ‘start working in a bakery’! I also know that some of you might had asked yourself why am I working as a dog walker / sitter and building a blog, instead of looking for something in my area!
I heard that in many different ways, even when still in Brazil and today I decided to reflect about it and let off the steam a bit! It’s one of those days that it comes up to your mind and you just put it out and write about it. Don’t get me wrong. Even my husband and my family have questioned me about it, so don’t feel bad if you where one of these folks too!
When we realized this was what we wanted – to leave Brazil – I knew what that meant and knew the consequences that would come with it. When I came back from Dubai, I wanted to move again, but we thought it wasn’t the time yet so we stayed. Going back was quite hard for me, full of doubts, me pressuring myself, lot’s of maturation and I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life.
I decided to take 6 sabbatical months which lasted only three and I was back to active. So in October 2011, Es Dulce started to be born. It was a small dream that I did not know what way would it go. And that was because, it came from a gift that I only discovered when I was 26 years: the art of modeling sugar!
Sometimes you have to stop what your doing to rediscover yourself and that’s what I’ve decided to do now. I am the only one that knows how many times I’ve cried. It’s a decision that I do not regret, but it was not easy either. The company was growing, I was beginning to see the recognition, to reap the rewards! Closing it when I was getting all of this .. it was not easy at all! I am very grateful to every customer who trusted my work; to all those who became my friends, to each party and every dream I could participate; to every person who has passed through my life in the last 5 years. Because, with all of it, I managed to proved to myself that I could do it!
I always said that I was a small ant and ended this cycle like a brave little one ready to break new ground. I still like pastry, the parties, making part of peoples dreams, but for now, I’ll keep it with me until I fell it’s time to bloom again!
I do not know how our life will be in the next few years. We will stay in Finland for a while and then … I do not know! So how can I start all over, to maybe have to get rid of everything and go through all of it again? You may think it’s nonsense, but no thanks. At least, not for now! And you know, getting a job here has not been easy with the crises, apart that I still don’t speak Finnish and everybody asks the language; and I have to have the licenses to be able to work with food (even if it is at home).
I had many opportunities and enjoyed them all! I’ve always been in the first plan, when I wanted to go .. when I wanted to go back and Gordo was always there, waiting for me! Now it’s time to step back and let another star shine! We are here to make this opportunity worth it every single day and I say this, because Gordo’s dreams are mine too. And seen his achievements makes this little wound heal.
There are many Lili’s in me. Some I do not even know yet and I really want to find who they are! And you know what? I’ve always loved writing, I’ve always had my notebooks and I’ve been working hard this pasts months to learn how this blog world works!
Sometimes we get some judgments, some for badness, but many others from people who care, who are concerned and that believe in my work; and others simply because they are used in following standards. I’ll tell you that I suffered a lot with this at first, especially because people would always asked me: ‘He studies and what do you do?’ And I answered that for the moment nothing. I would always have this weird feeling after my answer and it really bothered me. I even talked about it with my husband, because I was really annoyed! I started saying that I had plans on this and that, but in between us, this was to please others, because some of them did not even exist.
And you know what, if I ever go back to pastry, only time will tell, if I’m going to become a real blogger, only time will tell. So if opportunities arise over time, why do I have to be this or that to please others? It does not make sense!
I am very happy with my dog friend at the moment, it has made my days much happier, smoother and way more fun! I want to have more dog friends, because apart of that, I still earn money with it! The blog has taken a lot of my time too, I have a lot of projects for it, my head doesn’t stop and it’s quite overwhelming to open a little of my world to you!
So what I learned with all of this is that I want to live the today and hope time is generous with me, giving me opportunities where I can always be happy!